I shot through a roll of black & white film over spring break – just everyday pics of my kids with their messy hair and play clothes – because in reality it’s the everyday moments I want to remember most… the way their cowlicks won’t brush down, the scraped knees from climbing trees and riding bikes, the ice cream drips and pizza stains on their clothes: evidence of a happy childhood. How can they be getting so old? It’s bittersweet. I love the new ways we are exploring life together – reading aloud through books I loved as a kid, soccer games and band practice, watching them try sushi for the first time, hearing about their crushes and their hopes & dreams for the future…  but still…  I miss the ways they used to need me. Now their needs are different: less physical, more emotional. They need a listening ear here, a little gentle nudge there… no more tying their shoes or holding hands at the store. Except for baby! Oh my sweet, sweet Hazel. Thank goodness for my cheeky baby! Her snaggle-toothed grins melt my heart and make me ache from happiness. I can hardly remember life before her. I feel like I have the best of both worlds right now – beautiful blossoming friendships with my older kids and a squishy, delicious baby to snuggle with at night. Life is good.

Ilford Delta 3200 film | Canon 1-V & 50mm 1.2L | scans by the FIND lab